I developed an anxiety disorder when I was in the second year of middle school. From elementary school, I had been seriously aiming to become a professional soccer player. However, in high school, after much internal conflict, I gave up on my dream of becoming a professional soccer player and decided to study abroad at an American university. Through a self-help program I encountered in the U.S. (a program designed to overcome anxiety disorders, panic disorders, depression, and stress), I managed to overcome my anxiety disorder.
At the age of 35, I was hospitalized to taper off and discontinue the prescription drug I had been taking for many years (Clonazepam 0.5mg, three tablets per day). During the reduction process, I experienced the extremely difficult withdrawal symptoms associated with tapering. Once I had discontinued the drug, I developed what is known as Benzodiazepine Protracted Withdrawal Syndrome, a lingering and very severe condition. Although I resumed taking one-third of the original dose, the symptoms remained extremely painful.
While enduring severe suffering, I underwent self-rehabilitation and was hospitalized twice for rehabilitation treatment over the course of two years. Gradually, I began working, and by the time I turned 40, I managed to work full-time again. By the age of 45, I had reached about 80% recovery, relying on one dose of Clonazepam. It was the most prolonged and painful period of my life—each day felt like living in hell. I still aim to completely free myself from medication, but I know true recovery will take many more years.
I have a vision. It is not only to support those struggling with the same anxieties, panic disorders, and depression that I experienced, but also to assist people suffering from the aftereffects of benzodiazepine psychotropic drugs. I want to help those at rock bottom in their lives. Through books and counseling, I hope to share my experiences and what I’ve learned to help others overcome their challenges and move towards fulfilling their dreams.
Note: Benzodiazepines are psychotropic drugs used as tranquilizers. If taken continuously for a certain period, withdrawal or dependency symptoms inevitably appear when reducing or stopping the medication.
Note: Clonazepam, originally an anti-epileptic drug, is sometimes applied to treat headaches, dizziness, and mental illnesses. Among benzodiazepines, it has a particularly strong potency, making withdrawal extremely difficult.
